Day 114: Desperately Seeking Employment

July 24, 2011 at 3:14 pm (Uncategorized) (, , , , , , )

Today is Sunday, July 24th, and I have now been unemployed for 114 days. I have to admit that a feeling of desperation is beginning to settle in. I honestly did not think I would be unemployed this long. I have saved a record of my job search so far as a word document, it is now 38 pages long. I search and apply online at,, as well as individual websites for regional employers. I also search the help wanted ads in regional newspapers online. I have posted on my Facebook account, and let every friend, relative, and all acquaintances that I know that I am unemployed and looking for a job. I don’t know what else I can do to improve my job prospects.

I have three children that are enrolled in college at four year universities this fall. I have a fourth child that is dually enrolled at both the local high school and local community college this fall. Of course their tuition and financial aid is based on our family income for last year, which is ridiculous. I have now been late on all of my credit cards and house payment. We have gone to eating soup beans and rice and whatever produce I can scrounge from our pitiful garden that has wilted and dried up and blown away in the inferno that is this year’s summer weather pattern. I honestly don’t know what we are going to do if I do not find a job soon. I feel nauseous when I realize I have just a little over two months of unemployment benefits left.

I have been reading articles online about some people who have been out of work and looking for YEARS. I don’t know how we will survive if that happens to me, or how we would survive if my husband also lost his job.

So, I am trying to stay busy with my job search, and doing all of the little fix-it jobs around our house that I never had time to do when I was working full time. I have also been working on my novel that has been in various stages of completion over the years. I have started quilts from the bits of clothing that were some of my children’s favorite outfits that I saved over the years, as it is beginning to look like a handmade quilt from scraps is all that I am going to be able to afford to give them for Christmas this year. I have also been trying to walk and improve my health each day. I find that when I start to feel anxious that taking a little walk eases my fears a bit. I find myself praying more each day. I pray not just for help and guidance, but I try to find something good in each day now and to thank God for that bit of goodness.

I will close this post with a prayer for myself and all of the millions of unemployed Americans and our families:

Holy Father in Heaven,
Who sees our needs and provides for us,
And makes a way for us,
Even in the darkest hour and the hardest of times.
Forgive us of our sins,
Bind up our wounds,
Walk with us on this rocky path,
And help us.
For surely you are not blind nor deaf,
But can see and hear,
And judge.
Be merciful and draw us all near to you,
And comfort us,
Save us,
And redeem us,
For the sake of your son and his sacrifice.
For you know our needs and desires,
And you are faithful.
You are working all things to the good,
For those that serve you.
Even the trials of this dark and desperate time,
You are using to my benefit and your glory,
Even though I cannot see it at times.
Thank you for the blessing of this day,
And every day,
Help me to use this day to your benefit and Glory,
For you are worthy to be praised.


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